"اذوى" - Translation from Arabic to English

And I'm afraid that if he doesn't come back, that I'll... it'll hurt so much that I'll shrivel up and never be able to love anyone again.
ولاننى اخاف انه اذا لم يعد فاننى... ساتأذى كثيرا الى ان اذوى ولا استطيع ان احب احدا مرة اخرى.